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Day-mares

When my head runs out of things to do it tills the mental soil to make more fertile ground for the memories of the future. In looking for ways to improve, I have to stare at the things I'm doing right AND the things I've done wrong before. One side to repeat, the other not to.

Memories of things gone wrong bubble up occasionally, unbidden, even in the middle of a good day. The vividness of my imagination then gets a dark edge, and these day-mares can shake me and leave me with chills.

I do what I can. I force myself to look and to learn to get some value out of it, but try not to dwell or obsess.

Once again, noting some of the topics and feelings here in my journal ... I've already covered some of the fallout of these moments, and it's helped me realize I've run ragged over some things already. Helps me patch the memory that has a few holes.

- Pookah

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