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Tough to keep motivated. I just feel ... tired. Can't explain it. Maybe it's the medicine. I should read up on that more.

I guess it's also that I'm kind of confused as to how I should do the main task I've been asked to do. It's not that I don't have to think to do my job, I just sometimes I don't have to think about the "what" most of the time. This is going to sound strange, but I imagine it's like magic to a magician. There are things you just do ... they just happen, even though you're the one causing it to happen. It doesn't necessarily take tons of focus. But you get in that mindset, that focus kicks in, and time just passes. It's when I do my best work. I guess it's kind of a Zen thing. All else ceases to be, and I just do.

Maybe I just can't tune out the world very well right now. There's a lot else I wish I was doing. Practicing my guitar, finishing any one of several video games, reading or writing, building some boxes I had a cool idea for. Half of it is probably the large amount that work has been spilling over into my personal time, which is partly caused by the backlash overlap of personal stuff into my work time. I don't get as much done during the day, therefore, my evenings aren't my own.

Bah. Not much good I'll do wasting more time on that now. Introspection will not gain me much today. At least the clouds have started to part. Time to turn this feeling into a second wind of sorts.

- Pookah

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